It’s 4:20am, I’ve been up since About 3:15, and I went to bed around 9ish last night. Yep, I’m now on an old people sleep schedule and I don’t like it one bit. I’m not exactly keen on the fact that I’m turning 30 this year, so I might be a little sensitive about doing things usually associated with “old people”, like going to bed before most of the good parties are even getting started. On the plus side, I have an adorable little Burmese kitty to snuggle with while I’m missing all the fun of a night out with the 20-ish crowd.
I’m still dealing with questions of identity and appropriation re: my practicing of Eastern martial arts and philosophy (namely Zen Buddhism). It feels like I’m being a hypocrite when I do these things, but then turn around and tell outsiders they shouldn’t be using native culture and spirituality. I wish I could just sit down and have a conversation with somebody over this, because I just keep going around in circles.
<~ A Grouch
